I can't get myself to study!!! I woke up at 9am, went to church and afterwards the thought of having a haircut suddenly popped and so I went to a salon. It made me feel better indeed! Afterwards, went to the grocery to buy snacks, mostly, chocolates and coffee for the sleepless nights I'm going to have. I dunno...there's a placebo effect of blogging...and it's an itch...I've got a feeling that after this, I can then concentrate for the finals...nyahahaha...pathetic, isn't it?

Well...if your'e taking up OT as a course, small things make you happy.

And oh! This is for the person who was once a friend...I don't really want to forget him, but I know I should...

So thanks for making me a fighter.

I have left FRIENDSTER! Yep! Sa wakas natupad na! Peky, it feels goooood! hehe...babaw ko grabe. Anyways, here are the testimonials...sayang eh...and I know it's hard to make one. To those people who wrote these (although some are puro "bola"), thank you. Enjoy ko rin nman friendster but I dont want to have a connection with a particular person who mistreated me. If he comes back...ano siya siniswerte? MR. GUTIERREZ, JR...YOU SUCK!!!

Anna, 01/23/2004: here's my second. hmmm.. what have i learned from phaedra nowadays? a! na marami nga siyang kalokohan! at tuwang tuwa naman ako, nakikisali ako! (tulad ng pangungulit kay tabawsky, at ang isang malupit na prank namin.) na gusting gusto niya mag-med. na minsan tinatamad siya mag-aral, ako madalas tamarin, na kasama siya sa thursday tradition (st jude day)... hmmm ala naman na akong masabi. teka, ano na nangyari sa coffee friday natin??!! bakit parang nawala na yun. parepareho na ba tayong kapos at butas ang bulsa kaya we'd rather fix ourselves nescafe frothe in our homes?! teka yun muna, nagtitipid ako, paubos na load ko. babushky.. catch u l8r.

Melissa, 01/04/2004: Phaedra, in Greek Mythology siya yung 2nd wife ni Theseus na nilandi yung anak niyang si Hippolytus, wa epek yung charm kaya nagpakamatay. Siyempre di mo maikukumpara si Phaedra sa bruhang kapangalan niya. Malayong- malayo. Si Phaedra yung isa sa mga una kong naging kaibigan sa UST bukod kay Charlene at Irmadel. Una nakadaldalan kasi kilala ko yung 4 niyang batch mates sa St. Joseph. In short may common denomiator kaming dalawa. Akala ko mababaw lang magiging pagkakaibigan namin bangag pa kasi ako sa high school life. As it turns out, mas malalim pa pala. Hindi niya ko kinalimutan nung magkaiba kami ng section dahil sa lintik na Algeb na 'yan. Madaldal, kahit wala ng boses nagpipilit pa ring magsalita. Wala makakapagpatahimik sa kanya. Kung anong opinyon nya siguradong ipapaalam. Prangka, pero yung pagka- prangka niya hindi nakaka-offend. Chismosa, sino bang hindi. Malalim, may pagka-philosophical ang views niya kaya enjoy ako kapag maseselang bagay ang pinag-uusapan. Very wide-reader gaya ng karamihan sa aming magkakabarkada, which makes her more interesting. Conservative, tunay na dalagang Pilipina. Mahilig sa dare. Hindi takot sa mga bagay na para sa akin ay nakakakabang gawin, which means if she wants something so bad, she's not afraid to take the risks. She loves meeting people, kahit nga yong mga nakikilala niya through chat. Madaling maloko sa mga lalaking may magagandang boses sa telepono. Magaling makisama. Makulit. Maingay. Matino. Matalino. Mabuting kaibigan. Ilan lang yang sa mga katangian ni Phaedra. Kumbaga "tip of the iceberg" pa lang alam ko marami pang nakatago sa closet niyan. Phaedra nung nagpaalam ako sa inyo sa gate ng Soldier's, yung yakap nating yon alam ko hindi pa 'yon ang huli. Babalik ako promise, magkikita uli tayo. Salamat sa lahat. Yung secret natin ha.

Jeremy, 01/04/2004: Phaedra... Oh you mean Merewyn? Ah yes! I know her. But do I? Of course I do. She's my cousin. That's all! (joke!!!). Merewyn is very very very studious like his kuya. That's the first thing I noticed about her. Very focused. Sometimes quiet pag kasama namin kasi puro kasi boys ang pinsan niya. That's all I can say to my cousin... Good luck to you and hope we could hang out 'coz I really miss that. See ya!

Lorra, 12/27/2003: Aside from burping loudly, phaedra also has other talents that she can be proud of. Shes a singer (yeah right!), story teller, ummmm bow! Yun lang! Joke! Seriously, phaedra is a friend whom anybody can hope for. Shes a good listener and adviser. Minsan hindi lang siya mag-aadvise, tutulungan ka pa talaga niyan i-solve yung problem. Shes funny and very outspoken, as in really outspoken! Sometimes her frankness makes me laugh because I never expect her to say something so true in front of everybody (as in everybody!pati yung taong pinaguusapan namin). She may be a little moody at times but I can forgive her for that (I myself am moody sometimes). Shes also a gimkera kahit na minsan lang siya sumama sa mga gimiks namin. Hindi naman niya kasalanan kung hindi siya payagan ng parents niya no! pero kung lenient ang parents nito, nakawwwww, wala siya sigurong time na palalagpasin para maka- gimik. She can be silly at times when shes bored (kaya ako napapatawa nito when everythings getting dull). Shes truly one great friend (this may sound a little biased but its true!) I have nothing more to ask for (well may be you can tone down your shouts a little when you get hyper or maybe you can sit far away from me or my ear for that matter! Joke joke joke!).=)

Ren-Ren, 12/23/2003: When it comes to studies, phaedra always goes the extra mile!!! always looking for additional sources in the library together with her barkada no wonder shes extra smart! A very neat person as you can see her books , notes , and kikay stuff are always arranged. When it comes to being a friend.. awwwww sweet yan c phaedra andyan yan parati pag kelangan mo ng help. well someother additional stuff, pareho kami ni phaedra na sucker and admirer when it comes to youngblood articles( lalo na pag tungkol sa pagibig yung topic) . well c phaeds conscious yan on what she wears ( fashion lover kung baga).. all in all phaedra is an A-OK person and I feel lucky she is my friend=)

Joelg, 12/05/2003: one day, i was meeting the 4 OT students, we were trying to fix the sked for their clinical observation in pediatric settings, when this tall lady entered the faculty conference room, calmly sat down in one of the chairs, leaned against the table and... ***B-U- R-P*** that really got my attention, i paused for a moment trying to figure out what was that thing...pero di ko na lang pinansin kasi I don't want to embarras her... well anyway its a common knowledge to her OT peers that she got that talent of regurgitating air...hehehe... Phaedra I just knew her as one of my students, gaya ng mga kaklase nya matanong din, like most of them masipag at masinop sa pag-aaral. after you gave her the response or answers to her questions she would respond in a slowly well articulated manner "O - K"... would always tilt her head while listening to my lectures, medyo restless din sa upuan... and you can find her biting something... sometimes that's my cue that my lecture is getting to a bore... i once asked her how is she related to the famous Luna brothers, i forgot her answers but i'm sure she is somewhat related... but whatever the lineage or gene pool this lady has, she is a treasure...

Dyan, 11/25/2003: hi phaeds!c phaedra ung pinaka-ob-c sa amin.ayaw nya ng lukot na papel o maduming bagay.gusto nya lahat, maganda at maayos.phaeds, with her wits and beauty will make a guy drool.she's also a chat queen.grabe!anyway, she's the type of person who takes time to tell u who she really is.when she thinks the person is already worthy of her trust,then it's time for her to tell the person about her.that's phaeds! basta, she's a good friend lalo na pag close kau.one thing more, when u feel bored with life, just talk to her and everything will be fine and ur time will be worthwhile Norbert Keen, 11/25/2003: at isa pa, tingin ko kaya wala pang bf si phaedra, mattas ang standards nya.. me vocal naman nagsasabi na me crush sa kanya, iniisnob..tsk tsk, mapagiiwanan to hehe Norbert Keen, 11/21/2003: Si phaedra? I would always remember her as the jolly girl na ang tinis ng boses pagtumili, hehe.. Masarap siya kasama, kahit toxic na sila, she’d complain and just smile. Once you get to befriend her, she’ll always be there to laugh even to your corniest joke.. she can also give sound advice because of her purity..ooowsSSS.. Madalas kasama naming siya pauwi sa dismissal, and she enlivens our short trip to espana, heehe.. sobrang saya!! Masuerte ang lalaki who’ll finally meet her, never been touch and kissed daw hehehe

eMiLy, 11/15/2003: phaedzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. sobrang hinhin ng babaeng ito... parang ako.. nakikita ko ang sarili ko sa kanya... sweet sexy thing.. ahahaha ako nagpakilala sa kanya kay david samuel cruz.. ehehe.. anyway.. phaedra is a very nice person.. nakakamiss cya ha.. inggit ako sa height at katawan ng batang ito... wish ko lang ako cya.. ehehe isa din ito sa mga dios, immortal.... 4th year reg!! astig di ba.. anyway.. take care dear phaedra!! mwaaaaaaaah!! i love you... miss ko na kayo... please take care of my dear anna...

Michelle, 11/06/2003: phaeds! mabait, masipag(pero laging n22log sa lib), matalino, may pagka obsessive-compulsive, masayang kasama at kausap, matulungin! (ey tnx sa lahat ng 2long mo ha..),responsableng babae, makulit, isa sya sa mga clasmates ko na lagi kong kinukulit at minamanyak! hehehe. isa rin sya sa mga lagi kong cnsabihan ng "phaedra,hawakan mo nga yung (uknowwat) mo!" LOL well,enjoy kasama yan. hinding hindi ko rin makakalimutan yung mga anatomy (kalkalan ng mga patay) days natin, at mga iba pang kakulitan, kalokohan. ano, tulog uli tayo sa lib? :)

Claire, 11/05/2003: Phaedra is a great friend. Sobrang ok kasama at masarap kulitin pero watch out kung may mood swings siya kasi talo pa ang mga leon at tigre sa Manila Zoo! Joke lang.. i mean medyo lang. Sobrang responsible sa mga gawain at kung makikita mo siya pipinch niya yung cheeks niya para pumula at lalagay niya ang kulot niya na hair at the back of her ears. Ito lang ang tao na nakita ko na grabeee as in sobra pagmagBURP! Wait and see kung di nyo pa na experience pero all in all enjoy talaga basta kasama mo siya! :)

iReNe, 11/05/2003: Si Phaedra? Classmate ko yan simula first year college. For sure, never yan matatanggal sa original batch namin of OT2005. This girl is really smart, and I wonder kung paano niya nababalance ang school with her lovelife (hihi!). She is among the brainiest people in our batch. She is a very hardworking student, and she really is a perfectionist, I must say. She is not contented with just being a mediocre and strives to be on the top. Hmmm...Ang nakikita ko, it seems like she doesn't exert any effort at all to get high grades...Matalino nga talaga!:- ) Nakikita ko that in the future, she will be among the successful OT professionals. Phaeds, God bless you always! I know what you are working hard for at present will pay off in the future. Kaw pa!:-) Take care, Miss OT 2002!

Anna, 11/03/2003: the first thing that phaedra would want is for a person to say her name right. the ae in phaedra is pronounced as long a. not fedra, not fa-edra. she's sweet and quite a romantic, too. obvious naman from her favorite movies and her passion for romance pocketbooks - something that i believe we have in common. also one of the late comers in class and in all other appointments. madaldal, napapasigaw in public, at nakakainis pag in a bad mood (sino ba ang hindi?!). at times, frank and speaks what's in her mind. fettish niya ang maayos na lahat, in short may obsessive-compulsive trait

I was supposed to wake up at 3am to type a part of a report on pediatrics but as usual putting all the alarms on was useless. Believe it or not dalawang celphones na at isang alarm clock ang gumigising sa kin kanina. Ala effect yung snooze!!!i dont even remember putting them off! I already woke up at 8:30I got even more frustrated later at about 9:00 when the alpha hydroxy mask on my face was taking an unusually loooong time to dry. I have no choice but to wash it off because I have to meet up with a professor at 10am.

Last night, my internship group and I were nearly going crazy as we can't come up with a good research question. Apparently, my suggestion about aquatic therapy can't be executed due to the lack of a standardized assessment tool for body concept. (And why the hell would you use aquatic therapy just to treat a body concept problem?! bat ba di ko yun kagad naisip yun?Maybe I was just excited about studying the properties of water and physics for a change.). The time pressure on us was too much because we still have to consult the professor for approval. Today was the deadline. Suggestions played around Alzheimer's Disease and Arthritis still using aquatic therapy as an intervention and ADL performance as the context. Ok na sana talaga yung sa arthrits pero kelangan talaga ng series of treatment sessions to see the results at may clinical internship ka pa from 8-5 on weekdays and a class every saturday so kulang lang talaga sa time kahit na good for one year yung thesis. Sa Alzheimer's naman, hirap makakuha ng patients kasi di ba Alzheimer's Disease is rarely diagnosed in the country and caregivers/family members just think of the memory problem as a natural part of aging which is also true in some cases. It was already 7pm last night and we still have no settled research topic and we're late for the mass in St.Jude. We were becoming hopeless and we can't think clearly because we were so exhausted from the school works yesterday. You see, we still have to make the following:

- Down Syndrome report for Pedia

- Flexor and Extensor tendon injuries report for PhysDys

- telephone interview with the owner of Trichet Learning Center for additional baseline data (akin lang pala to)

- documentation of the program planning, and implementation for Trichet (akin ulit)

- translate in tagalog management programs for speech delay for the lecture-discussions with caregivers/parents of children in Trichet.

All of those should be finished next week, including the reporting. Sounds simple? Well, spend one of these days with me. Im exerting too much negative energy here, am I? Eh what can I do? I really feel...I dont even know exactly what I feel today after knowing what centers/hospitals Im gonna be for the next twelve months (starting April). All I know is, I'm tired, but not sleepy pa naman. Type ko lang muna siguro report for Pediatrics tapos, tulog na ko talaga. Going back, we were so desperate to have a reasearch topic, we consulted our professor. With his help, we were able to come up with this and it was already approved (eto lang nagpasaya sa kin ngayon).

ESTABLISHMENT OF RELIABILITY AND VALIDITY MEASURES FOR iSEE, A COMPUTERIZED ASSESSMENT TOOL FOR VISUAL-PERCEPTUAL SKILLS

iSEE was a program developed by the previous OT batches with the help of computer programmers. Astig di ba? We're planning to go to schools that have access to computers. Getting reliability results like, say, test-retest reliability might be a little time consuming, pero kaya namin yan!!

Happy Birthday to Michelle Lo!!!

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Sh*t! I just realized that I haven't finished reading Memoirs of a Geisha!! Double time dapat lahat so I could read it pa. Yung school works naman kasi eh, biglang dumagsa. To my classmates and friends in CRS - the few chosen ones who know my blog (hehe!)...are u still aware that last week lang tayo nag-2nd shifting exams? eek! abnormal talaga.By the way, sobrang ganda ng Memoirs...! One of the few books you would gladly read all over again.

I just realized that I haven't made a good intro for this blog yet. I went on instead with the story of the facial treatment which wasn't even worth telling here. Anyway, here it goes. I know I'm not good in compositions so please bear with me. And oh! Please feel free to say anything in the chatterbox.

My soul must have done something terribly good before I came into being. To have such great parents, sometimes I wonder, am I worthy of being their child? I don't want to dig into the details of their rearing skills, but I just want to share that the way they have brought me up is something that I would be thankful for the rest of my life. I owe them a debt that I could never repay. You now might think that they're perfect but they're not. Sometimes they can also be infuriating. Again, I don't want to go into the details. Remember what the commandment says!PHAEDRA MEREWYN VARQUEZ LUNA is my whole name. My first names were taken from the Greek mythology by my father who probably wants his children to have a different kind of existence. A different kind of existence it is! When I was 4 years old, I didn't know that writing my whole name was just the beginning of my problems. During that time I wanted to change it to Jennifer and so my father called me Jennifer for two days. But then, I changed my mind of having that name permanently because it was too "feminine" and my brothers kept on teasing me. When I was in high school my mother told me she wanted to name me Sheila, after her favorite drama character over the radio. I like the name, Sheila, but too many people have that name already. Luckily, I was "desensitized" and started to like my name, except during the first few days of e v e r y schoolyear when teachers are still warming up their orofacial structures to be able to pronounce my name. Now let me emphasize that my first name is pronounced as fey-dra, accent is on the first syllable. I have surrendered to the fact that it really takes a certain getting used to.

It's hard to find something nice to say especially now that school works are starting to pile up again. It's like you're trying to imagine a pleasant meadow while you're amidst a heavy traffic in EDSA. I'm not good at this. Uhm, is there a Nobel Prize for online journal composition? Basta, wala na lang introduction. This will be just an ordinary entry.