This was an entry I wrote in a curse-stricken blog. I thought it's an important reminder for a very special person. (I forgot to mention in the blog before that some thoughts in this entry were taken from "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom). When I read this again, I realized...I preach when I'm angry.

Two weeks ago, as I laid carefully my philosophy before you, point by point, concept by concept, I observed that you were listening intently like a student listening to his master. You tried to catch up with me, but my words seems faster than your thoughts. Probably because I succesfully demystified things, all I said overwhelmed you; it came to a point that you become numb for an hour or so after you have learned I had a talk with somebody that you least expected. But thats over now. You still have me.

Luckily and unluckily for me, I care about you so much. This is the way I am. When somebody needs me, I give a hand even if I know I shouldnt anymore. I wish, and I hope, that I could change. Try as I might, however, I know I wont. If given the opportunity to turn back time, I know I would repeat the same mistake, over and over again.

I hope you have learned a great deal with me. I am sorry I had to be harsh on you because I really dont think you could see the big picture. You have to understand that people should be firm on you. You are leading a good life, you know that. Stop cocooning. Dont waste your time feeling sorry for what happened to you in the past and for what people did to you. Dont rush, either. Make goals that are achievable and have a time element. If you fail along the way life doesnt stop right there. Always remember, there are second, third, fourth chances. This is what people are forgetting. And Im here for you. Right now, you are starting to be aware of your capabilities and that is a good start. Dont ever think na that your every success is for me. Thats bullsh*t.

Why do you think so many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep even when theyre busy doing things they think are important. This is because theyre chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

When things turn you down, learn to detach. Dont cling to things because everything is impermanent. Detachment doesnt mean you dont let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, let it penetrate you fully but dont ever dwell on it for too long. Thats how you are able to leave it. After that, do what needs to be done.

Everything I just said, alam mo naman na yan e. You may wonder why I created this entry Well, kasi yung mga sinabi ko sa yo noon baka maging hangin lang na dumaan. Leche.